to all my friends who really care about me:
haha. anw just wanted to say that im fine now. because i just like finalised things with andrew, SENSE OF FINALITY and i finally saw what kinda guy he really really is, and i cannot imagine myself nor ANY other poor girl being with him cos he's just so fucked up on all levels. haha. as in it feels great to finally see things for yourself and now i really know how it feels like for you to discover things on your own, and not just merely listen to other people (which i dont too cos im too stubborn). hahah.
but yea, as in he told me that he'll always be there when i need him and i can still call him, and he'll find me when he needs me and still call me. but i told myself that i wont call him.. nor be as close to him.. because really, it's a waste of my time and energy. and the next time he calls, i'll talk for like 20 secs and say like oh im busy studying.. call you another time which i wont. hehe.
oh yea and girlies dont be bitchy or like angry towards him, cos really it's not worth your energy. just be normal, like how im going to be..
and finally..
WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING THAT HE'S A GOOD GUY DEEP INSIDE AND BLAHBLAHBLAH I COULD CHANGE HIM BLAHBLAHBLAH AND WHY THE HELL DID I LIKE HIM IN THE FIRST PLACE. LOL LOL LOL so stupid
and as the saying goes.. "there are so many fishes in the sea..." so yea HE'S NOT EVEN A FISH. he's like PLANKTON. NO NO HE'S LIKE THE SHIT OF THE FISH THAT THE SUCKERFISH EATS. hahahhaa.
all i need to do now is study fucking hard. get myself into a good university and have a good future. while he goes to army when he's fucking 21 and after that god knows where. heehee. okay that's mean cant believe miss bitchy came out but yea, i hope you guys get my point. there's so much more to my life and i have a long long way to go. (:
ok it's time for me to sleep nowwwww. it's been a long long long tiring day. i need to be all prepped up for studying tmrr and the day after, and the day after, and the next and the next and the next.
(charm just invited me for dinner tmr with hot polo boys. HAHAHAH to get myself out of all this. i want j _ _ _ _ _ hehehehehehhehe JOKINGG LA. )
(thank you hot john for being there for me todayy and treating me to banana chocolate drink tho i wish you'd offered to beat him up for me. hahah kiddddddding. but no thank you really)
ok byebye!